Took a walk in the rain, and as it misted in my eyes, this song came to mind so I plugged it in my head and listened close.....
Sometimes? I scroll through these "freaking awesome stand on my head beside myself blessed" declarations coupled with commercial quality pictures of smiles so big and having so much fun and I wonder if it ever makes anyone feel like they need to keep up....even in the blessing department. Like life has become a commercial to advertise loudly and larger than life and make sure everyone sees it. I don't doubt the blessing; we all are. I just wonder, that's all. Sometimes it makes me tired.
The truth is, for me, that in the middle of the waking up every morning with eyes to see sunrises and legs that work to take walks and sugar to bake cakes with and phones that ding with a friend checking on me.....those things that are the every day things that don't seem quite as exciting?.......and make me look like my life is a carnival of amazing?.......those are the places where I also sift through the rainy moments, the moments where I crave the struggle to be real and honest and offer it back through teeth that chatter as a sacrifice for Him to use as His canvas. Those are the places where I love it when my friends and I take off our shoes and sit close and talk about how the good and the bad fall together like rain and He uses it all.
Those are the times when it soothes my spirit and I don't feel worn out with life commercials.
He gives and takes away. Blessed be the name of the Lord. That's what I know.
All of this is grace, dear one. He holds us close. ❤️
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