Sitting in the quiet.......a hungry feeling in my gut. No granola and raspberries can touch this. God has walked through the rooms of my heart these past three years, wiping off thick layers of blindness and heavy. He meant to make me a woman of His, set apart holy and pure. He did that for me. He did that. He created and restored. He did it by breaking me.
My appetite changed. I finally understood "and He will give you the desires of your heart." He did that. Not in a pious, churchy way. Not a mystical, "looking for signs" way. Not a rule book way. He loved me to His truth plus nothing else. He changed what I was hungry for.
I sift through His word to me each day, some days more desperately than others. Some days I know He's there? But I don't go looking. I'm prone to wander. To grab panic instead. Or cheaper, easier distraction. He costs me. He costs me everything I have to get Him. And He sends me other travelers who banked it all on Him to set me right.
I sing this in my heart today. Create in me......God? Create in me....a heart that can't tolerate anything but stained glass truth.....truth that reflects Your color without deceit, Your love without agenda.
Create in me, a pure heart.
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